Following what has heart and meaning

The only thing required of me is to take a few deep breaths and give myself the permission and space to feel what is attracting me to it.

In a world full of choices, opportunities,comparisons and to-do lists, it’s no wonder that feelings of overwhelmingness consume us. 

Yesterday I had a talk with one of my best friends, Kelly, from my basketball days. I was catching her up on everything that was happening in my life. That Neza went off to India for 5 weeks and how even though right before she left I felt really good about running our business alone but then two days after she left, the thoughts of “there’s so much to do!” came pummeling through my head.

At first Kelly was telling me to just start somewhere. But for me that’s the very practical side of getting things done hence the grunting and groaning which began in my head because it felt as if there was something else I had to do before I could just start. 

Then she said something that had meaning for me. She said tomorrow when you sit down to work take a deep breath and ask yourself what is it that I’d most like to do? What action is calling me to do it? What am I attracted to do? No shoulds, needs, or have-to’s forcing me. Just the “ohh, I’d like to do that now!” type of energy. 

It reminded me of the 4 Fold Way and the direction of the south.

The archetype is the healer and when you channel your inner healer you follow what has heart and meaning. 

I told myself if there’s one thing I can do tomorrow it’s follow what has heart and meaning. 

The only thing required of me is to take a few deep breaths and give myself the permission and space to feel what is attracting me to it. 

What my heart is yearning to do at this exact moment. 

I don’t need to blindly start somewhere. I can ask the universe what is it that would be giving me joy and energy. Knowing the answer will come because that’s what my inner being wants to feel.

So through all these getting things done systems and project management tools, I can weave in and out the healer in me and keep asking myself, “Kristin, what has heart and meaning for me with Go Mad right now?” and listen patiently as I hear the answer and then follow my heart. 

With that the feelings of overwhelmingness disappear and feelings of peace and ease take over.